Swim

Yes i went for a swim today... yup alone... the fact that i enjoy water.. sun and beach more is becoz of her.. she brought all this into my life and no doubt I'm enjoying it... I should really thank her for this.

Today i took the goggle that she gave me... the feeling is so much different.. this is actually the first time i went to a pool without her... sigh...

I think even though my mouth say i wont care for her... but i guess deep down inside i still wish she is safe and sound...sigh.. juz cant convince myself to let her go and die....

Wenting asked me... y ur entries all so late one... reason is simple.. if i feel sad and cry now.. is easier to sleep coz im also tired rather than i cry early and awake..

ok la.. more of tears la.. cry is abit over le... finally my ceremony is coming.. getting graduated... but the most important person that i wish to come... can never be there anymore... oh well... i guess tats fate...

I ran through the dslr today and i saw all those photo we took at the indoor stadium and memories came back to me again... even then i couldnt see anything amiss from her action.. i guess i sux at there huh...

Whatever it is... fate has brought us together and apart.. i guess i just dun have enough of those to keep it going.. and as day goes by.. i feel less hate and less sadness in me... i bet i start to forgive and forget.. but i guess i still cant be friend with her yet... we shall see about tat...

ok time to head to pillow..body to bed... gd nite everyone..