Stupid me

Today... 3th August 2010.. after 3months and 19days since she told me she likes him... i never had a week without thinking about her... OK! U WIN! i still love u! and FML!

it was not long ago since she officially told me she is with him... Yes~ i already see it coming... i cant stop myself from being sad! WHY!?

I know i will be sad if i see their picture together BUT I STILL GO ahead and SEE!!! and now i feel extremely terrible....

Steph has been telling me again and again to let her go... I KNOW! I KNOW! i know in term of rational i should just let her go... BUT I CANT! she said is a rational over emotion... but u guys know me by now i AM a emotion side of guy... sometime i feel like i am the woman more than a man in a relationship... not that xiao sha...

When i was in poly... this friend of mine... Albert.. he was said.. it took him 3 years to get over the past relationship... i never knew why... so now i get it...

i really dont know when will i ever get out of this shit......

I put my msn nick. i have get over my sadness... time to get new one... im so trying to tell her that i am moving on... try to act as if nothing happen to me..

but the matter of fact is... no... i cant act as if nothing happen to me... i cant go out holding another person hand at all... i cant really put my heart into liking someone when there is a person parking in my heart with a season ticket without expiry date.

i have been thinking abt her alot today.. dont ask me why... i dont know either...

i want to know how is she.. but i know if i start asking... there will be no end to my misery.. though happiness is only a second when she reply.

Please spare me from all this thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!! once again.. i hate myself to the max