recap

Being a new year 2013!! i clean up my drawer.. threw away all the useless junk.. and reformat my PC.. i hope by cleaning all the old things.. i can start afresh in my life in 2013!

Anyway while i was clearing things up.. i found the letter she wrote to me.. i dont know why but somehow the guy that read this letter before and the guy that read this letter now.. have much different feeling... i miss her alot these few days.. especially i changed my sheets yesterday... when i saw eeyore bed... that was the moment i realize i miss her alot.. i guess is still my fault for being a jerk before and nothing much i can do now to change the past..

I removed her from my friends in facebook because i saw her picture stating her first date with another guy.. i realized it hurts me deeply.. to see her with another guy.. maybe is juz me that yet to move on..

2012 has been alot of ups and downs.. and when i was organizing all the photos.. i noticed we travel alot!! the fun moment that we had together.. and i suddenly recall a phase from this movie 听风者 and i rephrase slightly.. " What if there is sad parts in the memory?" " Just remember the good parts will do"
This makes me think... why do i have to think of all the quarrel and unhappiness we had? Wouldn't it be better for us to think of all the happiness we had before? Why do we have to end up like now?

OH.. back track a little.. now i have to think of reason to keep eeyore bed in future if i have gf.. i dont think any girl will want me to keep my ex-gf pillows..LOL! damn.. i love that pillow T_T

I'm glad i have Ting, Hui, Hao and Ah foo to get me through this period.. they have been excellent friends as far as i concern.. i have to say.. i feel ashamed that i neglect them when i was attached with her.. especially hui and ting.. since she had "girls problem" with me.. Actually i dont even recall why did i changed so much.. seriously doubt the real me was even there for the last part... i felt so insensitive... failure.. =(

anyway i was having lunch today and we were talking about wife and girlfriends... is funny how guys nowadays date younger girl!!! somehow i feel not able to social with girls that are too young!! maybe old man huh... ting even ask me to date wen if we click.. she is a nice person and i think we share some common interest.. but somehow i feel she is too outgoing.. till the extend i might bored her out if i have no plans at all! when it comes to old pple like us.. we prefer to slack more den going out whole day.. lol =x

Sigh.. stop typing now and go to sleep soon~~~ i shall remember my target for 2013 and get my abs ready and able!!! wish me luck!