urge

no idea why i feel the sudden urge to write something about the life i'm in right now... people say writing a blog is like looking for attention.. i am not going to deny this.. i am in need of attention now.. attention from a friend that could listen to my sorrow...

sometimes i feel like i am in a place whereby i listen and advise everyone but none could listen to me...

Sometimes i feel like my issue was so minor that no one cares... think that i am complaining and being a nuisance. Am i?

I like someone... my first concern... do i have the time to invest in this relationship? frankly speaking, i do not even have time for myself.. how could i handle a relationship? i never dare to commit my time to anyone because i know i cant because of work... is this worth it?

being a team lead in paper but working like an overpaid engineer.. frankly speaking i feel nothing when it comes to leading a team. i dont know my team schedule.. i do not know their project on hand... i do not know the cases they are handling.. are they overloaded... every single day... pple come looking for me.. can u go for this meeting? can you help do this project.. customer wants you to do it.... everyone is asking me to help... how much can i do? i feel like i am running at my max speed for soooo long and my system starts breaking apart.

i am tired... too tired to continue.. maybe is about time for me to look elsewhere..